today's routine suppose to follow according
to what i had plan yesterday!!
1) seremban
2) sunway
these above locations im suppose to go
at the end also done nicely...
woke up early in the morning at 6am
prepared everything then off to go at 6.20am..
after sent my bro to school and went back to fetch my aunt
and had our breakfast in a coffee shop..
so, i was curios abit to be SO DARE drinking COFFEE!
since few years ago.. i was not allow to drink coffee and stuff like this..
bcause it will hurt my stomach since im always skip meals..
i will just add more saliva in my stomach there..
after the eating..
straight away to seremban..
on the way there..
i was HARDLY BREATH.. just like ASTHMA..
it's really killing me!!!
my mum and aunt lectured me..
but still i really want to try the taste..
end up.. i will never DRINK COFFEE again..
took 2 hours to reach seremban..
after i had done my private thingy..
and when home it's already 12 noon..
thn bath and preparing some stuff it's almost 1pm..
then there's a phone call from my dad..
my mum picked up ..
dad: hey..is kahyee here?
mum: yeah, she's here..we just back.
dad: can ask her come and help out? the office is very buzy..
mum: wait..i ask her first..
mum: kahyee, dad ask you back to office.. wan?
me: huh? wht? now? i guess no?
mum: she said no..
dad: okay thn..nvm...
i was like...
im BLURR..
then..after few minutes..
i guess i should go back office instead of staying home
since doin it at home or in office still the same..
why not?
so, i told my mum that i should go help my dad's out..
Later on, my sis rush down stairs..
she said: KAHYEE!!! i heard it..
(showed the bo song face to me)
i was like..
what now? what should i do?
though i could find someone..
to help me out with it..
tht time i was like..
LOST MY TRACK!!!
i don know which path i should choose..
before that im going to call my dad..
but i didnt..
so, my mum asked me to call my dad to comfirm about it..
(calling)
dad: hello..
me: dad, it's me-kahyee...
dad: owh~ yeah? whtsup?
me: nothing. just want to ask if the office still buzy.. need anything to be help out?
dad: not really buzy here..if you wan you can come though..
do whatever you like.. you got something to do?
me: umm.. nothing much. Just that i had promised sis to go sunway..
dad: okay..then you go have fun..
(conversation ended)
so, at that moment..
since my dad said so...
i had no offence to do just to follow what my sis request..
while waiting her boyfriend come and fetch us there..
i was really unhappy with what i did!!
i feel so useless..which i cant help out my dad..
then before that i told my sis..
me: ei, should i go back office to help out?
sis: zzz...you already take half day off..
why don you just off the whole day? forget about it...
there's still got another workers.. we hired them to work!
so don worry about it..
me: (speechless)
after we off in the car...
i was so unhappy..
my tears nearly came out..
lucky i didnt..
if not i will get scold..
well, i dont enjoy it..since what i've done..
what decision i had made..
all the way long there shop.. i just pretend to be happy...
im was broken heart..
my heart crying out loud!
so, when i came home..
while im bathing
my tears droped out slowly..
i feel like im so useless..
at the same time...
i feel helpless too..
cause no one guide my track..
since i've lost my track..
no one be there for me when im needed..
i feel like everyone abandon me..
left me alone..
well, i cant aspect so much from them..
since they're just my friends..
doesnt mean it will forever..
they will forget me as well..
that's the matter..
im okay with it..
forget it..
but still.. my heart was injured..
i didnt bought anything but a pant cost 109.90 bucks from Forever 21
i treat them lunch at Wendy's cost 32 bucks..
dinner at Papparich cost 63.70 bucks..
had evening tea at Gloria Jean's cost 30 bucks
accesory for CNY cost 150.90 bucks
my sis's high heels shoes cost 59.90 bucks from MOD