21 of Dec
Today my house got an opened house, well of course is not my opened house. That's my sister. So, she cooks those fast food and something that was nice. The food okay okay, not really that bad. Well, in the same day.. my cousin from singapore came here too. Hehehe^^ quite lot of fun! Although i dont really likes her much, just pretend to be good enough then okay. Besides that, someone confessed to me. I was shocked like hell. Firstly i received a christmas card from him, then unfortunaly my phone credit expired date. So, i borrowed my mum's phone to say thanks. Later, he asked me to give him a chance and bla bla bla. I though he could be make fun of me or whatever... So, i end up with the opened house as excuse! Hahaha... but i really cant tell him the answer. Because this is not a good time!

22 of Dec
Today, i so fed up with someone i appreciate and loved to most in my whole life. I was wondering everything that she did to me. Is that a loved from her to me? I always thinked about it everything that she gave and did to me. But i was wrong. I feel like she is been using me because there's her beloved the most buzy with others stuff!!! I really getting mad. Telling me not to follow my cousin went to pavilion. But howcome her beloved going out with them? Futher more, im the one who is staying!!!! Is this fair enough?! Telling me to save some money to intend the economic is getting worst... in the end who is the one buying expensive things to the beloved because of getting nothing at all?! This is not fair!!! Buying thousand bucks of thing for them.. and give some excuses! I really hate this kind of person... In the same time, i love and hate her... She always hurt me.. make me sad and down! She rules my life.. and do whatever she wanted! Then what about me? Did you ever turn to me? Did you ever understand me? eventhough a tiny little thing?! Did you ever?! NO!! She didnt.. she always thinks about herself only!!! Telling me to study hard.. Well, i did my best.. but she's the one who know nothing about it... The ways she telling me is under estimate me!! I feel like crying.. and im crying now!!!! I hate her!!!!!!!

Today was awsome!!! Well, today i suppose to have two dates ^^ Of course i cant make it tow dates right?! So, i regret Mr. KK date. He invite me to watch "enchanted" but seriously i dont really like to watch it as well, though it could be nice..but after seeing the trial.. is not like my fav type of movie...

I suppose to awake at 9am in the morning.. but then i feel sleepy, so i continue sleep until 9.30am but i still feel sleepy.. So, i continue sleep until 10.30am only wake up.. Well, i have dreamed about im back to my primary school... and always together with my best friend wherever we went around the school like usual we did... Uhh~ is kindaf felt sorry for my best friend since i didnt contacted her for about 1 year.. although i got her handphone number... But when i sent her a message in english language, she sent back me in chinese language.. I really dont understand why.. Cant she just write in english? I think english is more easy than chinese.. Futher more, english is an international language.. What a weirdo! Hehehe ^^

Okay, let's talk back our main conversation.. So, i quickly got up and eat my breakfast.. then, watch tv- astro "the jewel in the palace" this korea drama is damn niCeeee~ Especailly when it is cooking part.. the food looks kindaf delicious although their mixture kindaf complicated! So, just watch astro about 11am ... then read some newspapers.. Later got dress up and im ready to go for my date ^^ But im not really like it some of the people (my friends), because they didnt keep their promise to reach at timesquare in time since the movie is started at 2.35pm.. I though it is suppose to have alot of time.. if you got up early and have nothing to do! But i understand for some people who got tuition.. But at least make in time before the movie started.. Plus, the person who booked the sits for us is late for the movie... So, i decided not to wait him.. I kindaf hate those who didnt keep their promises!!! Then i went in the cinema room when yee ling reached timesquare.. So, brandon asked really dont want to wait for woo tung? Then i said it is already late for the movie.. If you going to wait him then serve yourself, i dont have that kind of patient to wait him.. Because i dont want to late for the movie like last time..

So, he might be scared if he waited woo tung alone. Then i asked kenneth want to wait with him or not.. so kenneth said that he is not going to wait woo tung since he reached there for 30 minutes (i guess) after taking the tickets from brandon, yee ling, me and kenneth went to the cinema room first.. later on, kenneth asked us whether we wanted to have a drink on anything else while watching the movie.. So, we said no need, thanks! Well, yee ling and me went wrong the way since our room is 3.. so, we went to the 1st room.. Hahaha ^^ But at the end still brandon and woo tung late for the movie for a couple of minutes (i guess). Whao! The golden compass was a great movie.. i like it much.. kindaf adventurer ^^ the cinema was very cold like the in iceberg... So, after the movie yee ling was finding the toilet.. we found 3 times only get into the toilet because there alot people waiting to use it. So, while we finding the toilet.. i almost forgot the pay the tickets fees.. So, i quickly called brandon.. But no one picked up.. So, we also meet up peggy... Her dressing like 20 years old mature woman. Hahaha ^^

Then, after the DC when went to gasonline to have a eat. we choose to sit inside there.. So, yee ling have a salad fish rice and i have a honey chicken sauce.. The chicken is totally making me alot of trouble since i cant eat it with the left part of my teeth! Also, we have a hot chocolate because yee ling have "red".. Well, the food was niceee~ Hahaha ^^ this is the second time we ate in gasonline.. kindaf coOl. Ohh yeah! yee ling bought a new handphone kindaf nice and cheap too ^^.. Actually we decided to have a pic inside the restuarant.. Unfortunately, inside the kindaf dark futher more, yee ling's phone dont have night mode.. if use flash light is too light. So, i tried my night mode camera.. but it is too dizzy.. and not nice! So, is too bad didnt take for a pciture >O< But next years after spm sure got alot of time to have fun together ^^

Well today is a fine day as usual. But a little different than usual days not bored at all. Hehehe ^^... I got up early in the morning for a reason! That is i got a check up for my teeth. Since there some kind of pain and everything i eat whatever food it is. It is always pain and pain. I though i could be end up the pain for some days. Unfortunatly, it pain everything.. and end up for a few weeks... So, i decided to tell my mum about it. Though she could help me out to get rid of my pain. But she end up with my personal dentist!!! How cruel she is?!

So, she wake me up at about 9.30am... and later she wake my brother up. Because my brother got a date with his friends for buying some kind of pants that those "lala" wear all the time wherever they went! So, after sending him to his friends house.. My mum and i just straight away went to the way.. While the dentist was checking, he asking where and show him where... After i showed it, he said there is nothing at all.. So, he said maybe something cause it pain. Then, just end up with X-ray. Afterthat, he said that there a tooth coming up slowly.. Now i realise that is the pain!!! He also asked where the upward teeth got any pain.. well, of course it is pain..but i didnt tell him because i scared he might end up with some kind of injection >O<

Since there is a tooth caming out, he asked me not to use that part to eat food. Also he gave me some medicine that feel more better after eating it. After the check up, my mum and i went to Jusco biught some gloseries.. Of course we having our lunch at there.. well, im quite eating my food fast.. But now cant any more. Because of my tooth!!! UHHHH~ i hate that>O< But i always forgot not to use that part to bite the food.. Hahaha ^^ After having the lunch of course need to eat medicine (sob~) Then, went home.. on the way there is a heavy rain. I think my mum catch a cold because she didnt put on anything to prevent the rain. Luckily i got bring my jacket ^^ Reached home already, i opened the computer to play some games and checked on my mails.. Until my brother came back.. About 6pm, my mum and i plus my brother went together to night market buying some stuff (girls only know) Of course the thing is nothing to my brother sure will said annoyed ^^ Hehehe.. Then having our dinner at there too ^^ Hahaha



p/s: my brother buy something too when he dated with his friends.. too bad he dont let me see..
it is boys secret?

Whoa~ today feel like better than the other days le. Because my grandma and the little cousin brother is not here. So, the entire house feel in peace ^^. I really admit that when they are here, they always make many noise and always argue with tiny things such as dinner. Can you believe that?! Uhh! i really cant stand them! If you were me, you really getting mad in one day... Since now they are in singapore, my mum and my maid can cook many delicious food^^ I really dont care whether it is a simple food like a fried rice or whatever. But most important that is the food is nice and delicious! Well, today my mum cooks curry chicken and the the kangkung and and many more that is nice le ^^ I really eat alot today..especially today!

Well, i admit that i dont eat well...ever since my grandma cooks the food. I can totally eat lunch only. Because sometimes lunch i only eat some bread or buscuits. Or even drink a cup of milo drink. Or maybe dont eat at all... So, many of my cousins oversea came back also said me im getting thinner than last year or last saw of me. Hahaha^^ Im always like that.. so, cant blame me what! I kindaf abit studborn... So, most of my jeans and trouses cant wear it although the sizes is S size! Hahaha...unbelieveable right? Until now also the same. My mum also getting thinner because of worried my sister. She is always like that, i also dont understand why... But i only know for some reasons..probably?! Hahaha^^ Well, i guess most of the parents will also worried their own children as well. No matter how old they are.

Another thing is i meet a weirdo in msn. I dont know who is she/he. Feel like acting weird..making me confused. Well, i really dont know why he/she telling me about he/she stuff. Maybe he/she got something unhappy happen or something else. But i really dont like making friends through online...this making me feel so uncomfetable. Because most of it i met them are lying to me. Or confess to me... Once i regret their confess, they saying some kind of reasons. What i mean is.. you dont like me and odnt even know who am i, why should i accept your comfess? Im a stranger towards you! Im not a play girl..if you are playing, why dont you find those "hot chicks" from china? That would be better! You even can have kiss and do sex with the "hot chicks" Since they are playing too.. One night stand really can serve you enough. Besides this just a game and it's a business between you and the "chicks". Well, i really suggest that kind of person try it as well!!! The most horrible thing happen is, someone that i dont even know who is he using my picture and put on his own friendster and tell everyone that im her girlfriend! I really want to know who is that pervert king! It's making me mad!!!

That's why i regret those who confess me... They treat it as a game! Well, i fall for someone, so i decided to confess to him...but unlucky, im not his charm girl in his heart. Of course im so sad about it. I told myself that maybe one day i meet someone that will appreciate me. I cant blame him that him. Because he had many choices...there's alot girls outside is better than me.. So, from that day on... I didnt fall for someone... I really didnt... because i know falling in someone is not an easy job. Future more, once you falling in someone...it was a pain and you know that some day he might left you. Because he had found some one better than you. So, i prefer friends on nowards. But i feel guilty to someone...because i feel like im using him as well.. He help me alot when im in trouble... But i didnt help him out. what i wish for, he would try to gave it to me.. But i didnt.. I dont know why he treats me so good. How if some day he fall for me and confess to me? I really treat him as my buddy no matter in what situation... Sometimes, i get closer to some certain person is to using them... But they though im kind, actually im not... Getting closer with certain people just to using them as well... That's other me... No one ever know that im have to personal details. Of course my mum know..but she really cant saw it with her own flesh! Only i know myself...

Within these two personalities, i cant know what im doing... So, sometimes i feel sorry and pity with certain people... Because they dont know my using them as well. Future more, i betray my best friend.. At first i though she could choose me, but im wrong... i have forgot that there is another person besides her... and always cheers her as well. Now i have figure out that the other person is not cheers her up.. is just using her and making fun of her.. So that she couldd have something in return. What a good planner! But im not, because i always listen what's her real heart saying.. She always acted happy in school but in the real life. She is not happy at all... That's what she told me about. I understand that.. But it wont work out, because in the end... She choose another person as well. Sometimes i though im her puppet.. But when i realise, i am a puppet after all. So, i decided to leave... i dont want to continue this kind of friendship as well.. But i still cant forget her.. Because she give me a real life. At the end, i leave her as well.. no matter what happen...from that time i left her. She is just a stranger to me no matter what situation....

Once i restart my ownself, i feel im still in the cage as well... That's mean im still cant left my past away.. No matter how i try.. So, i decided i forget it just awhile. But still these memories surrounding me in my brain... All these memories that i hate most in my life... I hate my past.. No matter what. I can only tell myself.. you can run away but you can hide it forever.. Because im scared eveything will happened it again. Well, it did happened again... I met someone for a few months only, though she could choose me as well... But she choose another girl just what it had happened before that.. Im lonely again... I couldnt cheer up since then. So, i pretend it.. if not she would asked why... Because she always smile and happy. That makes me forget my ownself. But i realise if this continue, that's mean i always running away from the real life. That's mean im always alone. I left apart from them. Im different from them. I know that from the begining.. Im really diffrent from others. Even since i knew the truth...

So, no matter what happen... at the end i was alone too. What had happen now, it will happen again... when the earth is vanished.. everything had happen will happen again as well. No matter who is trying to ran away or hide the truth.. It cant change it. That's why we have to die... Besides, i had people being treat me so good and well... especially guys! Even thoug my brother, he never treat me as good as well.. So, i really hate people treat me so well.. they sacrifice for me or rather get scolded for getting something to me. I really HATE it as well. Because i feel like they treat me so good, inturn to get something as well. This situation i get it from my sister. Do you know what's the feeling.. it is so pain... and can you believe that? My sister treat me so good to inturn to get something from me as well!!! This is nothing compare with using people... I admit i lie before.. i lie for some reasons.. But still i feel sorry, i cant said it in words. Because i feel guilty.. So, this is the same as i feel guilty when some one treat me good. I cant accpet that... It is true... I cant tell the real heart to anyone but myself.. The reason is...................................

Today i can totally admit that im bored at home. Because no tuition until next week monday start. The reason is my sister got operation. so, my mum need to take care of her. Hahaha ^^ Well, every mum will take care their own child no matter what happen. Although their child being married. So, today my family and i went to y cousin new house celebrated. I can admit that there is nothing to eat...just have curry chicken and a few dishes. Totally disher only 3. So, i cant complain anything but just eat it. Because there is only these dishes they cooked! After having the dinner, we have some desert. My sister made a chocolate mousse. Damn nice! Yesterday she made some cup cakes for us. But kindaf sweet. My mum also made some mango pudding too ^^! But too bad...the chocolate mousse should put on some banana pieces there only be more nicer! Because i like it. Never mind, next time should bought some banana when having chocolate mousse. Hehehe ^^

Ohh yeah! Mr. B had bought the maple cash card. But he didnt know what to do about it. So, he just gave it to me. Then, i told him that i will buy the gachapon. Trying some luck see whether can get some rare equipment! Well, my brother help me to do this. So, just get a purple work gloves and 2 scrolls. Too bad it didnt help out. Because my brother need dagger scroll to scroll up his new equip. Since he use his old equip from lvl 43 until lvl 50 ++ If not, the attack damage will lower. He asked his friend to scroll so, when it burst at least his friend can support him. Well, i dont even have a real character. I just borrow it. Hahaha^^ my brother influence me to play maple until mad. Ever since i started to play maple, my mum keep complain me. Because i admit that i played everyday...But now i have to stop it, because next year im having spm exmaination. If i dont stop now, next year still will play until mad!

Well, i guess that's all for now, ohh yeah! Almost forgot..maybe this week saturday im going to have a movie with my friends. But no sure the date can make it. Hopefully can..most of it started tuition already at Martin tuition centre. So, see how well it's going on only decided! Hehehe ^^ Moreover, tomorrow my sister going singapore until this week sunday only came back. While she's not here, i can use her laptop and watch animation that i like. No need to share with my brother.. Hehehe^^

Hihi...Im here again to bloggie now. Since there is nothing to talk about. I just simple write about it. Although is not interesting..hahaha^^ Well, about today, one thing for usre i really dont understand why Mr. B want to buy cash card. I really want to know why. I feel guilty for him sometimes because he treat me so good and well... Always help me when im in trouble and many things else... But i didnt did anything for him...or something to help him out. Kindaf not fair for him. But seriously he really a good buddy. Well, he likes to say about COOL jokes around us... hahaha^^ (i guess)

But i definately wont fall for him... To me, every guys are the same...no doubt about it. But i really no interesting in guys or fall for some one else (seriuously). I cant accept some one because that's not like me at all. Well, about the cash card i will pay other half for him.. cause i got play it too. So, it is fair enough then i wont feel like owning anyone ^^. Another thing is my granny and her beloved grandson (daughter side) went to singapore today this early morning. Im really glad because they both always argue for little tiny things and always make noise in the house. So, of course her husband sure worry about her. But one thing is im pity my grandpa cause though he worry about her so much... On the other hand, she enjoying herself in singapore...showing off her singing skills like sucks and the grandson also like a mad dog growning. I have wonder how my cousins like in singapore can stand their attitude ornot..

But this isnt my problem.. Seriously i hate my cousin sister living singapore... She was like a idiot that she thinks everything she choose is what other people like it. But im kindaf pity for her since she got a good family and in a well situation. She dont even how to appreciate it. Haih~ cant balme her too. Maybe she is brainless. But seriously i really hate much. Some more they said that they are coming in Malaysia. Ohh thank god please dont come la.. Came here just want to mess up my house later need to clean it up like hell. Not only that all, My dad and mum need to spend tones of money on them too.. Paying those non reasonable fees and bla bla bla things too. Im very sick to see them. Haih~ really pity them. Im wonder that there is too much money to spend on it? If in this case, why dont they just pay their own?! Im kindaf saving some money for my future study.. and not being using these money for waste on you. Look at your situation, think who are you?! Im so sick being see them.

But anyway is non of business...more importantly they didnt interup my family. What they like to buy just pay themselves and not us pay for them. Tomolo is my cousins open house. They celebrated because they going to moving in a new house which is half banglo. Of couse mine is banglo bigger than them ^^ They not only moving a new house and also they bought a new car. I think is my grandpa support them if not they arent many money to pay these kind of fees right? Well, whatever as long as they didnt interup me.. im glad ^^ I just hate people interup my life since my mum rules my world! I really hate mention it.. since my mum dont really cares me much. Why should i sacrifice so much? So, in my life there is only me.. and other me together.. I dont need anyone interup my life. Well, no one understand me. Even thoug my best friend or my mum. Besides, I need to study hard because my family especially my siblings... they like to underestimate those who are brainless or should i say those who arent from the university! Well, i have been underestimate by my family. So, one day im gonna let them how much i can to better than my past year. This is the prove now already. That's why i hate my past...and now im a new one. There's no more my past of ME!!! No ever!

Hahaha^^ im kindaf mad thoug..Seriously this is my family, everything i hav told is true...no doubt! They way they are is always themselves.. they dont care who you are...so, who want to become enemy, you will get it! Game is just started...

Yeah~ finnaly i can log in my bloggie liao... Few months ago, i cant log in maybe my connection got problem or something else.. hehehe ^^ (happy) Well, writing blog kindaf fun, you know?! You can write anything you want. But i can totally tell you that no even people know my blog, because i didnt tell my friends about it even though is my best friend. Hahaha ^^ Well, now still holidays..i didnt go any where. Isnt no people invite me for a movie is just im lazy going out any where. On ce you went out for a shopping, you need to spend money on it. Besides of your lunch and movie fees. You might want to buy something as a souviners, am i right? So, i suggest that why dont we stay home... Most importantly is you got a computer at your home. So, it might wont be so bored about it. Nowadays, astro is really sucks! There is nothing to watch..most of them are old stuffs... new stuffs are kindaf bored. What i trying to say is i want some korean shows or drama. Hahahaha ^^ i like this kind of shows and drama. Cause they are so romantic and kindaf funny (sometimes)

Well, i do watch comics all the time when im bored at onemanga.com there. There is alot of animation u can choose. To me, comics and animation are kindaf everything to me..(i guess). Im quite a simple person. But sometimes im quie complicated. Although is my mum, she really dont understand me...Because i dont tell her what i want from her... So, she might annoy me ^^ But for me, i also dont really know what i want too.. Because there are so many things, so you might just look around and see how it is going on. My personalities kindaf complicated from the inside. (i admit that) Because my family kindaf complicated (i guess) Hahaha, whatever..

I really got nothing to do..just write something that are meaningless. I guess that's all for now. See if i got mood to write or not. But sometimes, im so moody to write..cause lazy^^

Long time didnt write my bloggie liao..the reason is i cant log in my blog.. Maybe my connection got problem gua.. But is impossible lo. Hahaha ^^ who's knows?! Lately im kindaf alot of things to write about it.. But too bad i cant log in so i just write into another place. That's is in a small note ^^ well, luckily my mum didnt find out (i guess) i just write it i dont care la ^^ I guess this blog kindaf long story..as i need to write alot.. ^^ But then i cant write it alot.. Because all is about my private things (most of it)



What i can say is im okay here.. always in a good situation ^^ Anyway, holidays really sienzZZ nothing much to do about it. Most of my friends they find work maybe for one month. But im differ than them. The reason is my mum wont let me work...she will ask why all of sudden want to go work? You are still a student after all. Study well then think about you future and bla bla bla... Well, that's true! Some of them went on work to intent to get experiences. To me, work si a kind of business. Although you are playing an online game...Duh~ what am i saying..i also dont know le..

About studies huh?! I dont think that this holidays i get any study. Seriously =) I got went on tuition and do alot of practises. So what? No big deal with it. Anyway, if you really want to succes you really nee to put in effort. Well, i did alot of times since last year...But some of them i intent to ignore it, because i dont feel like nessesary. Im always lat minute only prepare my learning subject..especially nearly exams. The main is see my mood la. When im down im totally fed up and ignore it. When i well enough i will high spirit ^^ im kindaf weirdo. Well, everyone says me lidat. But i dont care about it...hahahaa~

What else i can say about? I guess there is nothing i can say. Although i do hav something..but i cant tell all of it. Most of them are my private thing le.. holidays didnt go any where, so no stories can tell about it. Hahahaha~ So, that's all i guess ..^^