21 of Dec
Today my house got an opened house, well of course is not my opened house. That's my sister. So, she cooks those fast food and something that was nice. The food okay okay, not really that bad. Well, in the same day.. my cousin from singapore came here too. Hehehe^^ quite lot of fun! Although i dont really likes her much, just pretend to be good enough then okay. Besides that, someone confessed to me. I was shocked like hell. Firstly i received a christmas card from him, then unfortunaly my phone credit expired date. So, i borrowed my mum's phone to say thanks. Later, he asked me to give him a chance and bla bla bla. I though he could be make fun of me or whatever... So, i end up with the opened house as excuse! Hahaha... but i really cant tell him the answer. Because this is not a good time!

22 of Dec
Today, i so fed up with someone i appreciate and loved to most in my whole life. I was wondering everything that she did to me. Is that a loved from her to me? I always thinked about it everything that she gave and did to me. But i was wrong. I feel like she is been using me because there's her beloved the most buzy with others stuff!!! I really getting mad. Telling me not to follow my cousin went to pavilion. But howcome her beloved going out with them? Futher more, im the one who is staying!!!! Is this fair enough?! Telling me to save some money to intend the economic is getting worst... in the end who is the one buying expensive things to the beloved because of getting nothing at all?! This is not fair!!! Buying thousand bucks of thing for them.. and give some excuses! I really hate this kind of person... In the same time, i love and hate her... She always hurt me.. make me sad and down! She rules my life.. and do whatever she wanted! Then what about me? Did you ever turn to me? Did you ever understand me? eventhough a tiny little thing?! Did you ever?! NO!! She didnt.. she always thinks about herself only!!! Telling me to study hard.. Well, i did my best.. but she's the one who know nothing about it... The ways she telling me is under estimate me!! I feel like crying.. and im crying now!!!! I hate her!!!!!!!